Friday, October 23, 2009

Happy Birthday to Me

OMGOMGOMG... I'm so thrilled this year with the influx of birthday greetings.. Must be the work of facebook.. Haha.. But aside from all the facebook greetings I got, would still like to thank those who sent me a sms.. haha.. Let me see if I can list them:

Hans: first person.. when I was sleeping...
Khairuzzaman: and yes... I was STILL sleeping
Zac a.k.a teddy: Please please focus on your studies... you got so many projects
Songhua: thanks for the cake, take care for your dental extraction
Eugene Goh: Big surprise! Haven't heard from you in ages
Edwin: Thanks so much for the greeting when you are so busy and tired already
Yuheng: who called, haha, its nice hearing your voice and greeting.
Louis: Must take care for your upcoming US trip
Amos a.k.a Cookie: School work school work.. dun slack hor
Yang Fan: I shan't bother to write too much cos your era of technology won't bring you here
Vincent Bai: Thanks but just focus on your studies.. Haha

And of course there is Bernard but I know its just because you are in Brunei.. Must take care!

And this doesn't mean those who sent a greeting on facebook are any less sincere.. I love all of them.. Went out in the afternoon with songhua for lunch but too bad he had a dental extraction so he had to watch me eat.. then he surprised me with a cake! Thanks loads! Then went home had a nap and then it was steamboat dinner and a cake bought by my sis! But she fell down on the way home... so heart pain... she shouldn't have go and buy the cake.. being safe is most important. Luckily she isn't hurt if not how much b'day greeting also wun make me happy. Though this birthday wasn't very eventful but I feel very blessed to have so many people send me greetings. I will definitely remember this day! T-H-A-N-K-S!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Laptop Down & New Skin

Haiz.. My Laptop is currently down and gone for repair.. Now I'm using an interim one that isn't really that useable.. Life becomes boring without my laptop... Oh yes, and I just changed my blog skin, hope its nice.. Seeing how to make it better

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Lost

Somehow, I feel like I got hit by a tornado and I am stranded somewhere that is not anywhere near familiar. I'm ... Lost.. There are so many things my rational side tells me I can be doing. I can be studying to prepare myself for my university education, I could be exercising to break some sweat and burn some calories or I could find ways to be closer to my family and friends. Yet somehow I have no idea why my motivation to do any of those are totally burnt out. Every day I am bored stiff yet I have no motivation to occupy myself with something. Maybe I'll list down some things I should be doing but I am not so if I come across this again, I hopefully will try to do them.

1) Revise my english and mathematics for university next year
2) Prepare birthday presents for my friends who have upcoming birthdays.. of course this is minus some egoistic guy called Y H Quah cos he doesn't need it.. Already got Zac's one, sort of know what to get for Bernard just need to remember to get it when the time comes, Sis one is unknown yet. Haiz..
3)Erm.. maybe give tuition if anybody got lobang..
4) Settle my relief teaching stuff
5) Maybe exercise a little

Thursday, October 8, 2009

The codewords of love

Some time ago a couple I know got into some argument and nearly broke up. Luckily everything worked out well in the end and they patched up but something in this struck me. Sometimes, things we say when in a relationship holds another meaning. Everything is about a different perspective. For example:

"I'm sorry" - It doesn't mean I'm wrong, it just means I care too much about you to risk this relationship.

Get the meaning? Sometimes one party in a relationship starts getting jealous but it just means the person cares so much about the other. When you are able to see through it and get the real meaning will you be able to appreciate the intents. But even so, words are still a powerful tool and be very careful on how you use them. Never use your mouth to hurt others but only to say "I love you".

I've been trying to help them see things in another perspective and hopefully things for them will only get better. Then I'll be really happy for them. May they be blessed in whatever they do.

Everything is forgiveable when you are cute

I was on the bus back from meeting a friend when a pair of mother and son boarded the bus. The son was pre-primary school age probably 3-5 years old and was as normal boys are - hyperactive. Fiddling with a blown-up ball (those type like beach balls) and other things like pencils and such, he was standing on the bus seats, moving all around and to a certain extent disturbing others.

However, strangely nobody seemed to take offence including me. The boy was really cute and even when he was making a nuisance of himself nobody felt it was offending. All that we could feel is that he is just a little kid wanting to have fun. Just when I thought this was the case, another thought struck me. Sometimes we would see "nuisance kids" on public transport like bus or MRT and we would have the strong urge to give them a slap when they really get on our nerves. Yet why did everything this boy do seem alright?

Therefore the almighty conclusion is: Everything is forgiveable when you are cute. HAHAHA

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Chicken Soup for the Mother and Son Soul

Recently, I've been devoting some of my free time to reading a book titled "Chicken Soup for the Mother and Son Soul". Every story is ever so fascinating and inspirational that it pushes me to read the next. Recounts of copious mother & son love flood the pages and touching is but an understatement penned to it.

As I close the book, saving some for another day, I am also tempted to recount a moment that best encapsulates my love for my mother or vice versa. I wanted to have an incident that I could proudly show how much my mum loved me or I loved her. Yet, almost immediately I knew there was no need for it. I loved her for who she was, my mum, and not what transpired between us. I didn't need a special incident to love her or for her to love me. Love for each other was in who we were.

At that very moment I had the urge to call home or send her a sms telling her how much I loved her or asking her how her overseas trip to US was. Yet, being raised in a traditional Asian family has its limitations. The words of love Americans so freely express would put both of us in an awkard situation. So for now, all I can do is be glad of my renewed love for her and keep it in my heart. Hopefully she feels my love and maybe she really can. Afterall there is always a strange unexplainable bond between mothers and sons. I should really do more for her. Somehow she seemed to have slipped in my rankings of priorities. I must remind myself she is and always will be ever so important to me!!

A dedication to Mum..